Baby It’s Cold Outside

I love the holidays

I love them because when I am with my family, everything in my life seems perfect.  Everything seems exactly how it should.  I spent 4 days at my mom’s house drinking wine and relaxing with all my brothers and family.  It was quite possibly the most amazing Christmas I can remember in a long time.

I hate the holidays.

Whether the holidays are upon me, or already past I have never felt so alone in my life.  I wish I had somebody to share the happiest time of the year with.  I had to be alone….Will I be like this forever????   I am always glad to see the holidays leave, then I can’t back to my “normal” life.

I could lookout and enjoy the snow forever, but I hate the cold

I could lay on the couch next to the woodburner and cuddle for the rest of my days, but reality sets in.

Many times I wonder when I will be happy like I know I am supposed to be.  I just know however that eventually, it has to happen.  I can’t put my heart and mind through this useless torture all my life.

I hope that all your holidays were amazing…I love you all

~ by tylerjordan on January 14, 2009.