Because I am Scared to Call……
Depression is something that I have delt with ever since high school, it is something that it seems like I have no control over.
Many people have a hard time understanding depression, and accepting that they have it. I have no problems accepting that I have it, it is just something that I have gotton used too.
I have already hit my all time low, and that was around a year and a half ago, things were bad…..and I mean very bad. Over the past year, I have gotton a lot better, and been a lot happier. This week has been really really rough on me though so far, and I am slipping into a low. It’s hard to explain to your roommates and friends why you lay in bed, sit on the porch,lay in the grass and cry. They try not to judge you, but you know they are.
I know that being lonely is the root of all my evil, and I hope that someday I will find what I have been looking for. I know that the next 2 months are going to be really hard…I have 3 weddings. Don’t get me wrong I am very very happy for my friends who are so in love, and who have found the one that they are looking for; but at the same time, I just wanna say “fuck you”
I will make it through this low in my life, and be somewhat happy again. I do know that I will have lows like this for the rest of my life, and I have accepted that.
To all my friends who have watched me cry and tried not to judge……I love you.
—-Ty
T – finding the “right” person will not fix your depression. When the “right” person comes along, you better have your depression well under control or chances are the “right” one will slip away. I have had issues with depression in my past and I can tell you without a shred of a doubt, it will not go away. Even with the “right” person in your life, you will still feel lonely. Sorry to be tough. I hope it helps a little.
Sorry to read about your issues with depression. Don’t be afraid to reach out for help if you need it. There are so many more options available now. Hopefully you will continue to move forward.
Tyler, are you seeing a therapist? Are you on medication? I’m about to do both again, myself. I can assure you, it doesn’t go away on its own, although diet and exercise can help. Look at me as a cautionary tale: you’re young and full of life and promise. Please get help right now, and don’t wait until you’re 37 years old.
I’m here for you, virtually. (((hugs)))
Somehow i missed the point. Probably lost in translation
Anyway … nice blog to visit.
cheers, Proceed
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